panic

I should be in panic mode for school right now -- ONLY seven class days left until FINALS -- I'm not panicked, I'm a little worried, but still, I'm unmotivated and unstressed. Why? I don't know.

I never thought I would be one of those students who wouldn't care. But, I can easily say that, "sigh... I don't care." I've spent three hours on the internet doing nothing (damn myspace addiction), and then I realized I wasted my whole day doing nothing.

Today was also my first Monday that I didn't need to be down in the city working by 9:00 am -- and I had one class canceled from 4:00-6:00 pm. (Translation: my only committment was reading for today's class and attending today's class from 2:30-4:00 pm). You'd think I would have used all this other FREE time wisely and been productive. Nope.

Instead, I slept in late, talked a lot on the phone (yes, I finally had some 'real life' moments catching up w/ long-lost friends "Hi Britt!" "Hi Tina!"). Plus, I made a spreadsheet of my high-school classmates from my yearbook and emailed it to our class-reunion coordinator. We only have contact info for 115 people out of a class of 259. That's not even half-way people... WTF?? come on and get it together. I've personally messaged about 20 people who I'm not even really friends with trying to get valid emails - and I have a fairly small group of friends.

I'm mostly disappointed that I didn't even work out today with all this extra time. How the hell am I ever going to be ready for a 10K race?!?

I really need motivation if anybody has any to give ... (life, school, workout, etc.)

p.s. I just found this picture on my school's website (there's an arrow to me). That was my least favorite class in law-school EVER - but at least it "looks" like I was trying to pay attention. - Sorry for the small image - its the largest I could get it.